its the little small little actions. the care, the concern, the feeling i'm important to you, the passion you had for me, the respect, understanding, the trust.

"The greatest loving relationships exist when both partners love unconditionally. Both are actively thinking of ways to help and please the other, without a thought of what they are getting for it, in return. Each is in the relationship for the welfare of the other, not so that they can feel loved themselves. They are, of course, overjoyed to receive love from the other, but for them, giving love is how they are satisfied, not receiving it.

For indeed, to love is to give. To be in a relationship for the sole purpose of receiving love is selfish. And, relationships wherein the participants only give things to their partner, for what the will get back for it, are also based on selfish motivation. And selfishness is the antithesis of love. "

im trying very very hard to love unconditonally. but i can't help feeling sad. ):

i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i ii i i i i i ii i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiij i h p i ih ihi hk,j pji hio p ii i i i i i i i i iii i i i i i i i ii i i i i i i i i i i i i i i ii i i i i i i i i i i i ii i i i i i ii i

ahhhhhhhhhhh! wanna scream

"随便" i will never forget.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo confuse.

喜欢一个人，你怎能分辨是真的喜欢，还是你只是喜欢他陪在你身边的感觉。。到底什么是爱？ 是比很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢，还要在更喜欢吗？

please bring out the best in me. boost my confidence. let me feel worth.

i see a side of me i've never seen before.

now i know the changes i had in me.
i've started to make comparison of myself, i've become overly self-conscious. i've started to lose priortization. i've lose focus.
yep. not serious though.
but well. on the flipside, its all a process for a better things to come. it made me grow. it make me realize that changes is something that is gonna have in life. it gain my experience so much. imma gonna love all the changes. :D
but of course, gonna get myself back man, since i alr know all the reasons for the changes i had! hehehehhehe.
sigh, but you bound to lose something when there's gain.
no matter what imma gonna increase my confidence level. imma gonna have confidence in love, imma gonna have faith for everything im doing. imma gonna make sure that friendship last forever.
na mo ah me tuo fuo, give me strength to make everything better.

when we were young, what we wish for are just hugs and kisses and piggy backs from our parents and playing on swings, hop scotch and tic tec toe, making friends were so easy. now, its all about talking who are the sluts,backstabber and judging each other and dealing with awkwardness even with close friends and increasing amount of stress. aiyoyoyoyoyo. ):

no wonder ignorance is bliss. bless me with ignorance then. i would rather not see all the evilness around the world.
& sometimes i don't want my sensitivity. as in negative ones, like cares too much about what other ppl think.

ahhh.. life. sooo realistic.

imma gonna stop thinking too much on all negatives things, just think about my jmon and bffs and myyyyy omg ah studies! :D

I JUST FOUND OUT SOME THINGS!
i realize im on blogger for 7 years! although not consistently blogging.
& on around februAry last year i starting knowing onew and he become my virtual crush. HAHHAHAHAHHA.
ONEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! <3
dun jealous ah my mon. love you. hehehe.

HOW TIME FLIES! =/

im in the worse emotional state now. & everybody is leaving.
why nobody understands me. why.